Month: September 2018

Coming to Terms with Being a Paedophile, Over 30 Years Ago

As an early teen in the 1980s, I started to realise I might be different. I pulled the large family dictionary off the shelf and looked up the word “paedophile.” The definition: “child molester.” I went back into denial for a while. I knew I was attracted to little girls. I also knew didn’t want…

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Accidental Adoption

Disclaimer: Be careful. While I did nothing inappropriate, I am lucky I was never accused of such. Your mileage may vary. So far, this is the biggest story of my life. The child in this story is female-to-male transgender and came out as such and transitioned later, but he was always male inside. I thought…

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Caught in their Filters

I spend some time talking to people on Twitter and other places about what it’s like being a non-offending paedophile. Mostly I am trying to reach out to other paedophiles, but I talk to other people too. Sometimes it seems like everything I say is put through a filter. Maybe they think everything I say…

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Keeping Children Safe and Entertained

I recently went to an event and volunteered to help out with their children’s activity room. I did not plan it that way, but I was in put in charge of the room. And I had no helpers. I am an anti-contact paedophile. I have aesthetic and romantic attractions to young children, mostly girls. I…

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Thought Experiment on Paedophilia

So, a little thought experiment. You’re an adult, and you’re only attracted to adults. A curse was placed on you when you were young because of something your parents did. The person who cursed you has died, but the curse is still in effect. You believe there is no way to lift the curse. The…

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Celibate Pedophilia Without Anguish

I discovered my attractions in my 50s and I knew I’d never act on them, so they never troubled me much I’ve read the six testimonials included in this collection as of today. What will strike outsiders is not so much what they contain as what they lack — the authors are not child molesters! They describe complicated…

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The first time I didn’t view child pornography

I’m one of a group of people you might have started to hear about by now: under the name of ‘virtuous pedophiles’ we are people who experience attraction to minors but choose not to act on it or to commit other related offences. Since I first became aware I was a pedophile, I have dealt…

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What do these “MAPs” want? Why are they on twitter??

This is, in a nutshell, why it’s a good idea there are NOMAPs on twitter. I’m a non-offending MAP. “MAP” stands for “minor attracted person” and is a more sciencey term for what is conventionally called a pedophile. Which probably made you shudder. However, I don’t do bad stuff to kids because I am that…

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Censorship Of Sex Abuse Preventionists

What would you say if you found out that a platform dedicated to letting people tell their stories suddenly… shut down stories because of who was telling them? What would you say if you found out that Medium, a publication dedicated to people telling their stories from all angles and political affiliations, silenced the voice…

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The Complexities Of A Pedophile Coming Out

Many times, pedophiles have a huge fear around coming out as a pedophile to friends and loved ones. Many of us have heard the horror stories: Pedophiles getting outed, kicked out of the house, losing jobs, friends, family, even committing suicide. So, we must ask the question… What Do Most Coming Outs Look Like? Absolutely nothing…

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