This is going to be a pretty short entry. Just felt I needed to clarify a couple things regarding pedophilia vs hebephilia and point out that, while they can be two distinct and different things, there is a bit of overlap between the two. Pretty much anyone who knows me and who I’m also out…
Pedophiles About Pedophilia
Stories about pedophilia, written by pedophiles.
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Suicidal Thoughts vs Being Suicidal
The following blog entry doesn’t have all that much to do with pedophilia directly, but rather with having suicidal thoughts and feelings vs being actually suicidal, which I contend aren’t always necessarily the same thing. I haven’t touched this blog in quite a while but this is something I’ve been thinking about lately and I…
Pedophilic Disorder and “Distress”
These days, most people who study pedophilia consider it to be an orientation and not necessarily a disorder. This isn’t a topic I like to get into much discussion or debate over because, to me, on a personal level, it doesn’t matter much. I am a pedophile and I will always be a pedophile, whether…
A Tentative Farewell And Hope For The Future
It is with great sadness this month that I read the following words: I’m back from my vacation, but… I don’t know if I’m coming back. At all. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking, and the recent events seem to be one more thing that tells me that perhaps it’s time for me to…
My greatest fear turned into the source of my greatest joys.
Photo by David Clode on Unsplash I was in my young teens when I started to realise. I denied it. I hoped it would go away. I tried to figure it out so maybe I could change it. I had learned from the media, incorrectly, that “paedophile” and “child molester” were the same thing. Even my…
Coming to Terms with Being a Paedophile, Over 30 Years Ago
As an early teen in the 1980s, I started to realise I might be different. I pulled the large family dictionary off the shelf and looked up the word “paedophile.” The definition: “child molester.” I went back into denial for a while. I knew I was attracted to little girls. I also knew didn’t want…
Accidental Adoption
Disclaimer: Be careful. While I did nothing inappropriate, I am lucky I was never accused of such. Your mileage may vary. So far, this is the biggest story of my life. The child in this story is female-to-male transgender and came out as such and transitioned later, but he was always male inside. I thought…
Caught in their Filters
I spend some time talking to people on Twitter and other places about what it’s like being a non-offending paedophile. Mostly I am trying to reach out to other paedophiles, but I talk to other people too. Sometimes it seems like everything I say is put through a filter. Maybe they think everything I say…
Keeping Children Safe and Entertained
I recently went to an event and volunteered to help out with their children’s activity room. I did not plan it that way, but I was in put in charge of the room. And I had no helpers. I am an anti-contact paedophile. I have aesthetic and romantic attractions to young children, mostly girls. I…
Thought Experiment on Paedophilia
So, a little thought experiment. You’re an adult, and you’re only attracted to adults. A curse was placed on you when you were young because of something your parents did. The person who cursed you has died, but the curse is still in effect. You believe there is no way to lift the curse. The…